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When we think about life, one of the things that's related to the term
of life is purpose. What is the purpose of my existence? Why am I here
and is there something I have to accomplish in my worldly life? Many
religions have answers to these type of questions, but if you're not so
religious, as myself, those answers will be unsatisfying. It's in our
human nature to constantly seek for something, to wait for something,
and whatever good comes our way, we still don't find meaning of our
existence. While I was younger, I felt invited to change the world into a
better place, and constantly had that burden on my shoulders like I owe
something to the world. I thought that was my purpose. The truth is, as
you're getting older, the more you're involved in the world and it's
bullshit, so than you slowly start to realize that in a world like it is
today, hardly can one person make any significant change. People are
infected with viruses such as evilness, jealousy, sadness, spitefulness
and those are the people who have enough resources to live
moderately abundant life. And what about millions and millions of
hungry, sick people who fight every day to see another tomorrow? Who
will help them? I still feel the pressure and pain in my chest when I
even think about it, because it really bothers and hurts me how much
general injustice there is. No one
will come and save us. All we can do
is be good to each other, help each other and try to heal ourselves from
these viruses that, whether we like to admit it or not, rule us as a
society.. But let's return to our main subject. Thousands of people in
various disciplines like theology, religion, philosophy, for a thousands
of years, have tried to find universal answer to question ''What
is the purpose of our existence?'' This question relates terms like
meaning and life goal. When we hear those words, something inside of us
shivers, and when someone asks us about our purpose, we can't give them a
proper answer because we still haven't found one. If we live in a state
of anxiety that we have to know answer to everything, or particularly
to this precise question, we'll seek it among other people, in books,
religious dogmas, or we'll accept so-called ''universal answer'' To cut
your search, you won't find it there. Often we hear a question ''Which
path is the true, right path in one's life? Answers to this question
also go from: live a moderately life, start a family, have money
and a good career, to other extremes like: never get attached to
anything, just live and be. As you can see, again, no universal answer.
Why isn't there one particular true goal in our life, one right path and
universal purpose of every man's life? It's meaningless to discuss this
when the answer is plain and simple. Universal and objective,
concerning this topic don't exist. There ae 6 billion people on this
planet and every one of us is different to another. Everyone has their
own believes, commitments, what they stand for, what they wanna become,
where and in what they find their meaning. There is no need for us to
categorize and put objective labels on something that can only be
answered subjectively. Once I read: ''Give meaning to everything your
do,
so the meanings will lead you to your purpose.'' People don't enjoy
anything they do, even the things they love. Maybe it's because we live
in a hurry to something, rush, we never stop to smell the roses. That's
why we don't find meaning in the things we do. That's why our lives are
empty. Few days ago I caught myself living without a purpose or a goal. I
realized that in that moment, there was nothing that existed as my big
last life goal. I as I am, love to plan and make stuff happen, so I
always set myself hard challenges to accomplish. There is no better
feeling for me than to overcome my old self in things I thought I
couldn't do and grow from it, so everything I did led to a particular
cause that simply got lost somewhere and left a big blank space. I used
to have existential crisis, so I would feel lost when I had no purpose,
goal or meaning in my life. But this time I felt free. I felt the
massive blankness that exudes with warmth and calm joy. This time I felt
something different. When I started to think a bit about it I realized
one thing. No matter how good it may feel to know what you wanna become
and what you wanna accomplish as final, a.k.a. to know your purpose and
goal, that will always partly limit you. When you thrive to something,
when you work hard and even then end up standing in the same place you
were, or ever step a few steps back, you'll feel disappointed in
yourself because you didn't accomplish what you set for yourself. You
don't need to be disappointed, life sometimes gets hard, you just have
to
keep going. For me, this is a new feeling, because now, I am, for the
first time, a wanderer in the world of undiscovered possibilities,
unrestrained by accomplishing something particular. Don't get me wrong,
this doesn't mean I won't work hard and make come true everything I set
myself to do, it just means that I don't know where it would lead me,
because I haven't decided where and to what I wanna go in this moment,
except to self-improvement. I don't know what I'll do when I graduate, I
don't know what to specifically graduate, I don't even now what I wanna
do in the end, but this makes my hear beat faster, not being certain
for the first time. The beginning of wandering. Th world is an
invitation to me. This is my path now, and it's the right one, just like
all of you have your own path, and it's the right one because it's your
own. On our paths we'll come across all kind of things, obstacles,
crossroads, sometimes we'll step back, but we have to move forward. The
important thing is to find meaning in every little thing we do, in no
other place, but inside ourselves. Let's do what we love, what makes us
happy and what makes our soul dance inside our body, but never hurt
others on our journey. So maybe, just maybe, this will lead us into
finding our purpose, but for now, there's an open road. Sea of love, S.
